Archive | October 2012

It’s 2 Days Away

With National Novel Writing Month only 2 days away I’m beginning to panic a little.  I’m really not sure why. I know I can do it. 1667 words a day for 30 days is a walk in the park. My average chapter is around 2500 words. What’s got me in a panic is the fact that I have no idea what my novel is going to be about. I guess I shouldn’t say that I have no idea, I have a small idea. I have a few pieces of stories stored on my computer that were never finished. Maybe now is the time to tie them all together into one long EPIC 50,000 word piece of written art. The other thing that makes me nervous is that it’s a first draft. NO EDITING!  These people obviously don’t know me. I have this internal editor that lives inside me. She loves to come out and play.  Uploading without editing is going to kill me. I’m a perfectionist for crying out loud! Especially when it comes to my writing. I MUST EDIT! Some other writer friends of mine were giving me pep talks last night.  Telling me to throw her (my editor alter ego) in the closet and throwing away the key. I’ll do my best but it ain’t gonna be easy my friends, it ain’t gonna be easy.  You should see that I do to chapters before they actually make it to my website for publishing.

Anyway, I just need to stop over thinking it. I just have to accept that it’s a rough draft and get over it. Right?

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So So Much Going On…

It seems as though I am always doing SOMETHING, never nothing.  Even though I am sitting here on my laptop for hours I’m not just playing around. I’m either doing blogs for my volunteer work, I’m writing or working on my ideas for NaNoWriMo, I’m working on graphic designs for my Built of Barnwood blog. Tweeting about BOB or working on the Facebook page for BOB. busy busy busy.  I talked to my dad Monday for his birthday and he said I make him tired just seeing all the things that come across Facebook. Truth is I make me tired too. It’s all a labor of love though. I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t enjoy it. A lot of great things have come out of it all. I’ve met some amazing people.

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It’s interesting how, as time goes on, social media changes. MSN groups and chat rooms started it all. Then came Myspace.  I remember there was a time when Myspace was the only thing out there and everyone in the world was addicted to it. Then came Facebook and everyone slowly migrated over to it. Myself  included.  It took a while to get use to and I remember starting my page, not liking it and sticking with myspace. Then as more and more people I knew were moving to Facebook I soon decided to conform and join the masses.  I haven’t been back to myspace since.  Then came Twitter.  Now I’m so addicted to Twitter it’s pathetic but Twitter is where I’ve had the most fun and met the greatest bunch of people and also where my sis Becka got me the ultimate follow. I won’t name names but I will say I’ve loved him since the 90’s and when I post pics of my guilty pleasures his will be in there..hint hint.

So while we’re talking about guilty pleasures. I’m also addicted to this little company I help promote called Built of Barnwood. I won’t say too much because I run a blog dedicated to it and it’s listed up on my blogs page. When I see an awesome “Nobody’s Perfect” cross on eBay, not only do I tweet it to promote it, I have GOT to bid on it.  I’m not sure if I need an intervention or not. I’ve got 3 so far. One I purchased without bidding and 2 I won bids on.  The latest was yesterday.  My bank account hates me. That is if a bank account can feel such an emotion, which I’m convinced it can.

Another guilty pleasure. Television. I have shows on pretty much every day of the week. Sundays are hard because 2 come on at the same time.  Now the difficulty comes by virtue of the fact (ha ha that was a quote) that 2 shows come on at the same time after I’ve gone to bed. So recording both on the DVR would lock up the TV so I’ve had to make a difficult choice. I chose TWD. There are only 2 shows I won’t, for any reason, make recording adjustments for. The Vampire Diaries and Supernatural. The world could be coming to an end, hell freezing over, the sky falling, you name it..I’m watching my vampires and my boys.

Guilty pleasure #1 and ultimate Twitter follower. Could you just die.

Guilty pleasure #2. 2 of the 3 eBay Nobody’s Perfect crosses from Built of Barnwood

My vampires and my boys.

Happy Birthday Dad!

Tomorrow is my dads birthday. So I wanted to do something really special though he’ll probably kill me. Oh well he’ll get over it right?

 

Me and my dad

I don’t have a lot of pictures of me and my dad together because they are all in albums and I just haven’t gotten around to putting them on cd’s or on the computer. So the few I do have I’ll post.

Here’s my dad and I not long after I was born

 

How cute was I! Oh yeah this is about my dad…How cute was my dad!

My dad and I in Hawaii

I know..hard to see. I think it was about 1982ish. Photo quality being what it was in the 80’s you’ll forgive me.

Moving forward a lot of years. Dad and I at the Grand Canyon

 

 

and the bets picture of all. The one that belongs in a museum. The photography award winning photo of 2011.

 

That’s what we did to him on his 65th birthday last year. He was such a good sport.

So..Happy 66th birthday dad! I love you and I hope you forgive me for this.

Weight Loss Update

I saw the Dr today. Like I do every 2 months because I’m on weight loss medication that is part of the 80’s Phen Phen thing, but it’s working so I don’t care.  It’s also NOT causing any of the medical issues it did back in the 80’s. Which is good. When I started seeing this Dr I was 265lbs. Yeah..I know.  We started talking about different option. He suggested gastric bypass. I have a cousin who went that way and has done well but I personally didn’t want to go that way. We also talked about the lap band. Since I’m not all that versed in what my insurance will pay for and don’t have a lot of extra money to pay out in hospital bills I asked it there was another way. He suggested the Phentermine/Topamax way.  So..Just to give you an idea of how well this has worked..This is me a year ago

 

Scary I know. Size 4x 26/28

In February my Dr started me on the meds and gave me small goals. 10lbs in 2 months.  Every 2 months I see him and every 2 months he ups the goal.  In July I went home on vacation to San Diego (Comic-Con baby!!) this is how I looked then.

 

Much better. Down to a 2x 20/22 and I FELT so much better! We walked all over the place.  The Comic-Con convention is a lot of walking. We literally walked all over downtown San Diego. I’m talking blocks and blocks. From the convention center to NerdHQ and back. From the ExtraTV stage to NerHQ and back. I can’t even tell you how many mile we put on our flip flops in those 5 days.  When I got home I joined the gym and started working out. Can you believe it?!?!  I started on the treadmill at a mile a day. I’m up to 3 miles.  So today I saw my Dr. The official weight loss total so far is 52lbs and this is how I look today.

 

Size 16/18 I asked my Dr. how much I should lose because my goal is to out of plus sizes all together. I figured 150 is a good weight for my hight. He agreed.  I weighed in at 193 this morning. So excited to be under 200!

My Readers

I started writing several months ago, well let me correct that, I picked it up again several months ago.  As I said in a previous post I started with fanfiction and have slowly started easing into general fiction. Anyway, I have fans (not bragging believe me) they read my work and leave reviews on my  stories. When I take too long updating they email me asking when I will be updating. When I end a story they are sad and ask me to pleeeeeease keep it going. It’s crazy. So Checking my email while I have a story in progress is always fun. A few days ago I uploaded and published a new chapter. Today I get home from work and as I typically do I checked my email. Waiting for me is a review on the chapter and an email from the reader that says “Chapter 6!!! OH MY GOD SHE HAS A STALKER!!”  Indeed she does.

Admitting Mistakes

Today’s NaBloPoMo topic

Do you tend to cover up your failings or admit your mistakes?

I am the kind of person who will admit my mistakes. If I know I’ve made one. One of the worst things is making a mistake and not knowing about it, hurting someone and finding out about it later.  As human beings we don’t always know when we’ve done something wrong.

Recently I made a huge mistake at work that almost caused someone their job. I owned up to it and even asked my supervisor to discipline me.  It wasn’t something I did intentionally and I made sure the other person involved knew that and knew how sorry I was that the situation happened.

It’s always best to admit when you’ve done something wrong and if it’s hurt someone else, apologize and try to make it right.

Telling Lies

Today’s NaBloPoMo blog topic is “How good are you at telling a lie?”  Wow..Do I want to get into this?  Oh why not.

I think there are times in everyone’s life where we have to tell little white lies. Either to be kind and not hurt someone’s feelings or maybe to get out of an uncomfortable situation or for some other reason. Is this ok? Well that’s up to you. I’m not going to say yes or no because we all do it.

Now for real lies. There was a time in my life when I was a great big liar. I lied about everything.  I wasn’t ashamed. I didn’t think anything was wrong with it and I slept just fine at night thank you very much. Then my lies started to come out and started to hurt people. Then guilt started. Then I started to realize the reason I didn’t like going to church…guilt and conviction. That was where I needed to be and I knew it. So what did I do? I forced myself to start going back to church. I put myself into therapy and through that I dealt with issues from my teen years that had never been dealt with that had been the root of all my evil.  It took me a long time to get better. I got over my “evil” ways but I still wasn’t the person I should have been. That took a lot longer.  It wasn’t until I was in my 30’s that I finally gave my life over to Christ and said “please fix me”  Well he helped me fix myself and I am a completely different person.

So in answer to the question..No I am no longer good at telling lies. I couldn’t tell a lie to save my life.