There are people who believe that friendship equals obligation. “If you’re my friend you are obligated to…” The problem with this kind of thinking is that it makes friendship conditional. That’s not friendship, That’s a business contract.
Today was a pretty hot day so I waited a little longer to go my walk. I also did a shorter route today because I did an epic uphill workout yesterday and I’m still kinda feeling it lol My watch also decided to tell me I failed at my workout, telling me I burned more calories yesterday *insert eye roll*
Back in July I had my yearly exam and labs done. The results weren’t that great. I My cholesterol was high but not that high, got meds for that. The one thing that scared me was my A1C level. Not high enough to cause me to be diabetic and be put on meds for it but it got my attention. So I embarked on a new adventure. Walking and exercise. Unfortunately the weather here in Arizona heated up and I wasn’t able to do much walking through the rest of July and August. Now though, the temps are coming down and I have started my routine again.
If you are in some kind of workout routine, such as walking or treadmill, I highly recommend Lady Gaga’s Chromatica. Not only is it an awesome album it is nice and upbeat.
This is today’s results
PS….I’ll keep ya posted
Right now, and for the last several weeks, my world has revolved around my family. My parents mostly. My dad is in his final days of life. Yesterday my mom was asked if she had his arrangements made and that if anyone needs to see him they need to do it now.
I’m not sorry for being selfish. I’m not sorry for not being the person some expect me to be. No one’s opinion of me really matters right now, not that it ever really did. I no longer have the energy to fight. I very rarely do something for me these days. So if I am on social media doing things, commenting or active on other websites, that’s because at that moment it was all about me. I have to take moments when I can get them. If others can’t understand that…So be it. I have enough on my plate right now to care what others think.
So…All that being said…To my family and friends who do understand, I love you and I cherish you and thank you for being in my life.
There are many different types of phobias. I have a few
arachnophobia – The fear of spiders.
Coulrophobia – the fear of clowns.
Orthopterophobia – the fear of crickets and grasshoppers (among other orthoptera insects.)
I am deathly afraid of all these things. I didn’t even know there was a cricket phobia until a friend and I were talking about our shared fear of them and I looked it up.
One thing you will never see on a list of phobias is “Homophobia” That’s because there is no such thing as homophobia. This word has been giving this meaning as a way for people to justify their hate. Their bigotry and their close mindedness.
A phobia as something you are in fear of. Something that causes you anxiety and panic. People are not afraid of gays. Gay people don’t cause others anxiety or panic. Or maybe they do. I suppose if you don’t understand something it will instill a little fear but how about learning and educating oneself.
I really don’t know whyt I wrote this whole thing except that 2 things struck me in the last episode of “Say I Do”. In the show there were only 2 same sex weddings. I noticed in the first one that Thai, the fashion designer, just about fell apart at the wedding. I didn’t think much of it because he, Gabe and Jeremiah always get a little emotional at the weddings. In the last episode, the second same sex wedding, Skyler was out and proud and living his best gay self but Randy was still very much closeted. He’d come out to his family, which wasn’t received well, but he was unwilling to live outside the closet in public for fear of what people would think of him. It was all very sad and in the end he had fully embraced his gay self and come to terms with the fact that not everyone will be accepting of him and Skyler. How did that happen? It’s a long story, watch the episode “Me and my guy” to find out. Anyway, in the process Thai told his story, which had me bawling, I’m not even kidding. He wants so badly to marry his partner of 14 years but doesn’t feel that he can because of his parents prejudice. They are traditional Vietnamese people. It was all so sad. I actually messaged Thai on Instagram and told him how his story affected me. He is the sweetest man.
This is Thai and Kevin, Thai is the one holding the dog.
Bottom line….Love is love. Live your truth.
You know that scene in Rocketman, right after Elton and John get into the argument and John hits him…Elton is sitting at a makeup table, back stage at a venue, looking in the mirror and trying to put on a happy face….That’s where I’m at…
What did I ever do to anyone?
mentally worn out….
Not worth anything to anybody, I get that now….